Testing Testing

I have a stupid habit of putting myself in ludicrous situations just to see if I can actually get myself out of them. I have managed to wean myself off this to some extent as I have aged and just become lazy in general. Still though, I like to keep myself on my toes, so every now and then I play Ryuchi Sakamoto "Merry Christmas Mr Lawrence" just to see what may tug at the heart strings. Does it feel like someone has torn a muscle in my chest? If I don't have a nervous breakdown I generally feel that everything will be ok. But it's all rather pointless really in that everything will all be ok anyway. Everything is ok. Everything always was.